Inner Sadness

When you call me
I feel so right
But you are always avoiding me as if it were nice
Please tell me that you need me
After that say you hate me

Just
Am trying get better
But I think it is not enough
God is already very disappointed with me
Okay I see

My mom, praying for me
And I feel guilty for this
I know, I want to disappear
My mind, it's too much for me